R E I R A

back.& new

2010-02-04T00:00:00.000-08:00

haha. i just realise the last post was on oct 2009.
omg, i've really have not been blogging in a long time.
so here's a quick summary of what happen from then til now.

1. i stop my bike practical, i still haven't continue it. think after mar 9 then i continue.
2. didn't get to spend raye with dan.
3. dan went into db late november, came out last monday (25 january)
4. i finally own an iphone (got it late dec)
5. cut my hair real short on 23 january

so yeah, that's basically all.
woohoo...it's 2010 peepz. yeah, it's already the 2nd mth of 2010.
it wasn't a good start but i really hope it won't be terrible throughout the year.
me & dan got stronger after the almost 2mths separation. and i'm really glad he's back in my life.
ouh yeah, happ 6months baby.!!
i really can't believe i could stay in this relationship this long.
and i even had to wait for him for 2mths...when he went inside db.
don't ask me what is db. find out urself.

he's in his most difficult time of his life right now, but i know he can pull through...
and i'll be with him every step of the way. he needs time to stand again.
it may take forever but he'll never give up. neither will i give up on him. not anymore.
i don't doubt that.

YOU & I

2009-10-30T07:30:00.000-07:00

no matter what happens
even when the sky's falling down
i'll promise you that i'll never let you go

you and i together, it's just feels so right
you and i together, don't ever let go of my hand
i promise you that i'll be right here baby

To me, this world is just you & me.

I love you, baby

-quoted from Park Bom's You & I-

routine

2009-10-29T18:27:00.000-07:00

it seems i'm moving into a routine life.
mon - morning sch, night wrk(s&s).
tue - morning use comp, afternoon sch, night go out/meet dan.
wed - morning school, afternoon prac/theory lesson.
thur, morning sleep, afternoon sch, night work(S&S).
fri - morning sch, friday free time (rest day)/ meet dan.
sat -morning macd, night shop & save.
sun - morning macd, night shop & save.

haha.

dan

2009-10-26T23:29:00.000-07:00

i love you too much already.
i always hate to say goodbye to you.
i always don't want to let you go once i've hugged you
or hold you in my arms.

an admirer

2009-10-20T05:55:00.000-07:00

i have a guy who admires me like crazy. no, im serious.
he's so crazy about me that it scares me. yup.
hafiz, his name. irfan's sec sch fren. really, dude, u got to back
down a little man. i have a sweetheart and i love him so much.
i don't care if u say u gonna wait for me or whatever nonsense
you say to me every time we meet. honestly, i don't know you that well.
i don't even want to get close to you anymore now that you creep me out.
if you honestly want to be a friend, i won't mind at all. but please all, stop all the
crap about you wanting to marry me, or want to be in a relationship with me.
let's just be friends, this is my last offer. continue what you doing, and i promise you,
we are strangers the next time we meet.

sapphire jewels

2009-10-17T18:57:00.000-07:00

also known as FF601, which actually means friends forever 6 people united as 1.
they are my closest, best pals in the whole world. i love them all.

1. Norhumairah
2. Nurul Afiqah
3. Noorina
4. Hidayah
5. Sharifah Ratna

1. Humairah
I call her Airah sometimes. I've known her for 9 years already, since primary 4. Met her through fathin. Didn't expect her to be my best friend. Haha. Funny girl she is. She is the main cause for my obsession towards the Korean scene. So far, she is the only one who can understand my feelings most of the time. As u all know, i don't really like to show my feelings. She could detect my feelings, and sometimes read my mind. She knows when I'm actually feeling down. And i love her for that. I can't thank her enough for always being there for me whenever i need someone to cheer me up. Although she likes acting emotional at times, i know she's one heck of a cheerful personality. We share a common trait, LAZINESS. hahahahaha. i talk to her about almost anything, underwear issues to hot sexy junsu to school issues. anything. love you, my crazy friend.

2. Afiqah
this girl, i had lots of nicknames for her. Babi hutan lah, 50cents lah, etc. She's a very beautiful lady to me. known her since primary 5, i can't quite recall how we actually became friends, neither could she. it's like we just become friends like that. Like "poof, we're friends." hahaha. but i dun care now about how we started out. i'm glad we're friends. fiqah & her malicious, dramatic mind always interests me. she's always full of ideas. sometimes stupid ones, sometimes great ones...And i know all of us like teasing her sometimes. No offence, babe. Like humairah, she also has a cheerful personality. and yeah, she's crazy too.

3. Noorina
haha. i'm always speechless when i'm with her. i'm overwhelmed by her slowness. She can be very entertaining at times. Whenever i think of her, giggles only came out. I remember during sec one, to me at that time, I thought of her as my challenge, i love challenging her. She's very clever, yes. She studies hard. That puts me in my competitive mood. I guess that's why when i tranferred to express, i wasn't anymore competitive coz i didn't have her in my class. There's one fight between us, that i would always remember, i know she remembers it too. It's hilarious, we both shouted at each other and left. When we reached home, we were dumbstruck, "Why did i shout her? Why was i angry at her?" that's what we both we thinking...haha.silly us.

4. Hidayah
the friend with the same horoscope. i have to admit i wasn't very close with her at first. only during sec 4, then we became a bit closer, because of shakilah. shakilah is my classmate, also a close friend of hidayah. dayah and fiqah are close friends too. afiqah's fren is my fren too... i can very much say she's a bit like me, very talkative. haha. she sure know when to have tons of fun.
i do wish i can spend more time with her, i do wish to become even more closer with her.

5. Sharifah
it's been a long time since i last saw her. and i'm certainly not sure what's been going on in her life. she's most of the time quiet. we used to call her telor last time. haha. known her from sec one. did flower arranging together with her parents. it was lots of fun. hope we can spend more time together.

and forgetting,
another close friend of mine,
my darling...
Seri Zalina

i jus call her lina or darling. i got to know her from my workplace, macdonald last year. to be honest, i wasn't interested in making friends with her at first. she didn't seem the type that i would make friends with. one day, i sat with her outside macd, and we started talking. and that's how we actually found out, we are very much in common in the way we think. she's also as crazy as me. so, we got closer and now, sunplaza macdonald knows we r "married", we even got ourselves couple rings, well, i bought it. hehe. she's my confidante. she's one friend i can say that i truly understand. and i would one to the pillar of support for her. ouh, and i love her son, irhan. hehe. also my godson. annoying little brat he is, but i still love him. Lina's my shopping buddy, my quarrelling buddy, my spasm buddy, my "talk about guys" buddy, basically, i confide to her about everything. if she disapprove of my boyfriend, then i would listen to her. likewise, for her. she's like a family to me.

haha, dun worry faiz, i never forget you.
my debating buddy. haha. this small little kid which i love to quarrel with.
in math class remember. haha. faiz & shakilah is my only friends in class.
i guess without them, i would have just die in express due to stress, and unable to
cope with others. haha.

ouh, taufiq also. the person who brought about my nickname, which is babi.
and very sarcastic he is.

aidillah, farah, syhella.

ridaudin.

siti shazwani, nur saiful.
my dear ite frens whom i wish to be lifelong friends with.

Taurus [Dan] & Gemini [Me]

2009-10-13T18:49:00.000-07:00

yes, he's a taurus. he's born on 20 may 1989. our birthdays are just two days away. hehe.
but of course, he's older than me.

Taurus
Taurus Strength Keywords:
- Dependable
- Persistent
- Loyal
- Patient
- Generous

Taurus Weakness Keywords:
- Stubborn
- Laziness
- Possessive
- Materialistic
- Self-indulging

Taurus and Independence:
Taurus is not the one who ventures out into the unknown and leads the way,
Taurus is the one that will follow the leader and strengthen and build upon the discovered,
in other words they are the one that will "dot the I's and cross the T's".
This perseverance is given to them by their stubborn streak.
Taurus stubborn streak is what gives their independence. They like to do things their way.
They are perfectly fine on being alone, this way things get done they way they want
them to be done. Taurus is not a follower, but they are not the brave one either.
Taurus is perfectly independent. With their perseverance, they get things done and
can do quite well for themselves.

Taurus and Friendship:
A Taurus is an excellent friend. Taurus has few close friends as opposed to
many acquaintances. The few people they hold dear to them are guarded and protected.
Their friends are treated like family and they are fiercely loyal and dependable.
Taurus loves to be the host or hostess. Although not a total social butterfly, they can be shy around strangers, the people who Taurus let into their lives are lavishly catered
to when Taurus decides to throw a party, they decorate and present everything lavishly.
Taurus will always pamper themselves and their close group of friends.

Taurus and Business:
Taurus is a strong business person. Taurus is the one who has immense perseverance, even when others have given up, the Taurus rages on. They have a knack for finance and their financial advice is prized. They know where money is to be made and have the ability to manipulate and set the path for their own success. Taurus are not frivolous spenders but they like to live lavishly and surround themselves with nice possessions and foods, which all adds up resulting in large spending habits. They will not spend all their money and cause their business to fail because if they do, their security and stability will be gone and this will cause them great stress.

Taurus Temperament:
Taurus are deeply sensitive, the slightest comment or negative remark will be taken
personally and they can easily get offended or hurt. Their stubborn streak results in laziness. They can be very lazy when someone gives them orders or wants them to do something they do not want to do. They are not lazy when it comes to themselves,

Taurus Deep Inside:
Taurus are not fond of change. In fact, is change is imminent, they get very nervous
and worried. They do not like anything new because anything new is unknown and Taurus
fears the unknown. Taurus needs order in their lives and when they do not have order,
they get very anxious. Taurus will cut themselves off from the unfamiliar in order to avoid the feelings of insecurity that arise when new experiences and situations are present.
Taurus do not express their feelings openly and their inner self is contained and secretive.
Many people do not know how sensitive Taurus really is, they hide it well. As a result, they
are often emotionally hurt when the wrong things are said, they take things too personally sometimes. Taurus avoids talking about their emotions and many people never really know
how they feel.

Taurus in a Nutshell:
Taurus is the one who has immense perseverance, even when others have given up, the
Taurus rages on. Solid and persistent, just like the bull, which is Taurus' well suited symbol. Taurus's have a well known reputation for being stubborn, which is not necessarily a bad thing. The stubborn streak can cause Taurus to butt heads and conflict with other strong character types. Taurus are not fond of change. They like the familiar and routine comfort of life.
Taurus is easy going and not one to pick a fight but should some poor souls attempt to provoke Taurus, the wrath will be known, for they have a temper underneath the calm surface.
Taurus are very responsive to their surroundings. They like decorations, color, anything that appeals to all the senses. Taurus like possessions and the Taurus home is nicely decorated with lots of things. Taurus are down to earth, they do not like gaudy, flashy or over the top things. They prefer comfortable and creative settings and objects. Taurus likes security, in every aspect of their lives from home, to love, to career. Taurus can be secretive, opinionated and stingy. Taurus tend to be self-indulgent and lazy, Taurus are master procrastinators of the astrology zodiac! They do however have a strong, persistent drive that comes to life when they chose, and no one would ever know that they are lazy. The secret to this is that their laziness is pushed aside when it comes to themselves.

Gemini
Strengths:
- Energetic
- Clever
- Imaginative
- Witty
- Adaptable

Weakness:
- Superficial
- Impulsive
- Restless
- Devious
- Indecisive

Gemini are extremely independent. They will not be... pinned down by anyone or any rules. They need to experience the world on their own. Change and freedom are extremely important to Gemini, they will never let anyone dictate them, they are extremely independent and freedom is essential to their mental well being.Gemini make very interesting and exciting friends. They like to leave their mark on everyone they meet. They are very flighty and will disappear for a long time as they meet new friends and explore new places. But when they come back, they will have new thoughts, opinions and interesting things to share and ideas to teach. Life is very interesting and fun with a Gemini friend. If you need any advice, Gemini is the one to ask. They are masters of communication and they can help you get what you need by helping you with persuasion and enthusiasm, and they give good advice too. Do not however, bog a Gemini down with all of your emotional problems, they are not want to deal with it because it depresses them and steps on their freedom if you need too much long term help, support and follow up. A Gemini friend can fill you in with the latest gossip....

2 months

2009-10-11T04:05:00.000-07:00

dan & me are together for two months already.
although we don't celebrate our union every month,
but i do keep count. just a habit of mine.
on oct 5, it's officially our 2 month anniversary...
on dat dae also i went out with my ite frens,
raida, atik, sarah, azh, shidah, wawan...out raye.
and guess what i almost forgotten about it.
damnation!
but im really somewhat glad that day...
as tyhe last house was at bukit gombak and we ended
our house visiting really late...
and i, for one, was the only one living the furthest...
which is sembawang...and the only way to get back hm
was to take 187, then 962.
dan was really concern for me. he ended work late too that day.
he waited for me, although he was tired. he claimed that he was worried for me.
i can't tell you how delighted i was. i know you may think it is typical for a boyfriend to
wait for you, but i know for one he's not that type of romantic person. he's rather the practical boyfriend. doesn't like to do all the silly things a foolish person in love would do. but he did that night, and for me.

having him in my life has truly lighten my dull life. although i would have to adapt a little to his practicality, but i find his practical-ness rather effective to my lack of financial control and time management. i do admit that i consider a perfect candidate for my future life-partner. but i don't want to rush anything...i just want to love him.

shop & waste

2009-10-04T09:55:00.000-07:00

tt's his fav. way of saying it. can't stop him.
aniwaes, im now working at shop & save as well.
as a cashier.
it's my 2nd part-time job.

ouh ya, linked and re-linked everyone.
ouh dun forget to relink me too kae...

moving on...

2009-09-24T03:11:00.000-07:00

i finished stage 1.02 finally. i had to repeat this stage.
previously on 28/8, i had lots of problems.

my moving off was wobbly...
my changing gear was very messy...
coordination of the brake and clutch is s*cky...
and stopping still needs improvement...

aft i went for the second time which is today,
my instructor i have improved tremendously...
and impressed... hehe. so i'm happy i'm able to move off...
he did mention that i need to improve on my reaction when it comes to
stopping. coz it's either i brake too early or too late. but so far, i was okay.
so he let me move on to the next stage which is 1.03.
yeay.

and also i attended both basic theory lesson already...
so i can now go the riding theory. yeay.

ouh yah, i met nad's boyfriend at bbdc. and he's doing 2b too. but he way ahead of me.
and oso nas gigi's fren i forgotten his name, he's already at RR. road devision, or something like dat. he's taking his TP in six days time, well good luck brother.

haha, long way to go for me though, but GAMBATTE ne,....

the day i met her.

2009-09-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

i was just accompanying them. they wanted to book for their BTT.
fiqah asked me. and dayah.but we were too bored to go home.
as it was really a fast process. so we planned to go PS. plaza singapura.
but we turned back when we had changed of plan. we went to causeway point instead.
there we ate first then bought tickets to watch jin notti.
dayah's sis came join us.

aft the movie, we went to pick up HER. that cute lil devil. soleha was her name.
when i first met her, i was really attracted by her cuteness. omg, i just want to pinch her.
hahaha. but like other kids, she's a rascal. very demanding and very spoilt.
but i still served her as if i love doing it. how can i do? she's too cute already.

dayah, get her to stay away frm me. or else i go crazy again. haha.

aft that, we went to SSC to meet with fiqah's sis at cotton on. and then we went shopping
at daiso. and dayah's sis sent me home in her honda stream. thanks anyway. :)
had a fun day.

raye. raye. raye.

2009-09-20T22:48:00.000-07:00

it's finally the day.
selamat hari raya to all muslim ard the world.
maaf zahir dan batin.

1st house ; dad's mom
2nd hse ; mom's stepmom
3rd hse ; mom's mom

then we went to malaysia.

went to mak long and kak ratna hses.
then heard that irsyad, my nephew fell during his raye outing and
cut his tongue(not totally)
so we all went to the Puteri Pakar Hospital.
thankfully, he was okay. he's only 1 yr old.
scared to death, everyone is.

but we didn't need to go to their hses anymore coz everyone's at the hospital. haha.

raye @ the hospital was totally a new experience indeed.

and then, back to s'pore. and home. and bed, here i come.

the 'clean-my-sty' day

2009-09-17T06:29:00.001-07:00

haha. yup. as always, it's the time of the yr to clean my sty
a.k.a my room.

so maybe this yr, u guys may be able to enter my room.
it's still in a mess, but not like peviously.
so yeah, maybe u may want to see. enough explaining here's piccies.

while cleaning...

the ugly sty...

and now, the much cleaner sty...

2009-09-15T09:29:00.000-07:00

forgive me for the late update as always.
wow, raye is coming soon. and i totally am not ready for it.
guys, we have a lot of planning to do.
msg me kae. really busy this week.

and sarah & syhella, linked and re-linked. thanks 4 the update.

event management

2009-09-07T06:46:00.000-07:00

didn't expect the paper to be quite easy.
though i didn't really study for the paper, i even left my book in the locker. haha.

but there was a question i couldn't answer.
factors to consider when employing performers.
tat's bcoz i totally didn't remember reading any about that. and it cost me 10 marks.

oh well, im only confident i would just pass this paper. not an A or B. maybe C. hopefully not D.

well, tomorrow is tourism products and services. all the best to me and all my classmates.

anyways, im putting a hault at my prac for the moment. i shall continue only after hari raya. reason: no money. hehe. so im going to work a lot during holidays.

dinner with them

2009-09-05T22:38:00.000-07:00

sorry guys for the late update.
had dinner with fiqah, dayah & airah on sat.

suppose to meet up at 5. but i was a lil late as i ended work at 4.30. but dayah & fiqah were later than me.

poor airah. hehe. she always the early one.
ate at banquet. and it seems all four of us were in the korean mood. we all ate the korean food.

airah: beef bulgogi w/ rice
me: chicken bulgogi w/ rice
fiqah: bibimbap
dayah: kimchi ramen

after tat, we went to time zone. and played some games. funny sia. haha. i love being childish with you guys. been too stressed lately. glad i had decided to meet you guys that day. or else i'll just explode and go insane.

hope to spend more time with you guys again.
and maybe with everyone else. airah, fiqah, dayah, rina, ifah, illah, farah, syhella, faiz, shakilah, taufiq.

love you guys. and dan too. hehe.
one day, i'll properly introduce him, kae.

his personal bike

2009-08-27T03:01:00.000-07:00

"you are my personal rxz."

haha. he's such a joker...

yesterday was my first prac..and i have to admit,
it's pretty heavy tht cb125. i had a hard time trying to
unmount it from the main stand. but still, i managed to do it.
and i ride it 4 a full thirty minute round the circuit at 1st gear.

tmr will be my second prac, changing gears and cornering.
super excited abt it.

hehe.

p/s: i miss you, dan

salam ramadhan

2009-08-23T03:05:00.000-07:00

selamat meyambut bulan ramadhan...

going to be doing a lot of work on the weekends,
commit to raising money for my pracs...
and purchase of helmet...

and lesser time with dan. =(
boohoo... but it's ok. we still message.

he's working hard too...

my baby is gd boy. shall reward him with lots of kisses aft ramadhan. hehe.

mr. smiley and a photo

2009-08-19T20:10:00.000-07:00

something to remind each other of the other.
i have mr. smiley keychain.
he has my picture in his handphone.

"you look beautiful in the picture"
i know i get that a lot from other people.
somehow, when he commented that, i was extremely
delighted. maybe because it's him. haha.

"play with mr. smiley and you will be reminded of me."
i was at the train, and all i have with me is my handphone
and mr. smiley keychain that he gave me. and looking at it
do remind me of him. mr. silly cute handsome crazy annoying boyfriend of mine.

Dan, I love you!

a new light.

2009-08-12T19:55:00.000-07:00

yes, yes, yes. i have a new boyfriend.
hopefully, this one lasts...unlike azri or irfan.
didn't last for more than 2 or 3 mths. and that sux.
haha.

this "hopefully not just a candle but a searchlight", his name
is Muhammad Danil Bin Ghazali. ppl call him sid. D.O.B: 20 May 1989.
he's an only child. and he got this "prince-symptom" where he likes
to praise himself. and he's favourite saying, "If I don't praise myself, who would?" and "i like it when ppl get irritated by me, coz they would remember me." hahaha.

got to noe him through amirul a.k.a topek when i lepak with them on aug 1 after my work. he was like "I kan abg hensem." truthfully, i hated his ego at first.

but he's actually just a joker, always making me laugh and smile. he may not be romantic. but fun is his category, so i gave him a "go". so we now steady.

pray being that we last forever.

Amin.

Class 2b license

2009-08-05T09:12:00.000-07:00

heix3 ppl. i went to bbdc todae and enrolled 4 my class 2b license. yeay!!
but haven't start anything yet. just enrol only. hehe.
so happy. so excited. after enroling, siti treat me to pizza hut at lot one.
and a big lunch. wow. thanks siti. appreciate it!

at 5pm.
went to corlee's condo at lilydale, yishun. nice place seriously.
ouh went wit lina of coz. we ate at his hse, fried prawn wit brown rice.
then head out to the pool to swim. swam till 9pm, then we bath...
they even have steam bath there. way too cool. so we had to try it.
so refreshing, just like sauna. then, we went to eat again.
chicken cutlet rice. awesome!

i ate a lot today. which is good for me, since i haven't been eating properly these few days. and mind you, i've lost 5kg. tat's too much. i need to gain some weight back. i dun want to be skinny.

2009-07-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

pls sing the congratulatory song for me, peepz. for i am, now, one of the four students that will surely
be debarred from final examinations. woohoo.
78% of attendance frm apr till now.
wow.

do i sound happy people?
but i can't blame no one.
no one except myself.
so please just sing for me.

p/s: sentosa wit sissy was awesome.

school

2009-07-23T12:14:00.000-07:00

i didn't go to school on monday actually.
coz of laziness. then tuesday, my sister actually called
my fren to ask about me. i guess she called my teacher too.
this is her over-protectiveness again. i really have no personal
problems. im just plain lazy to go school. do i look like a person with
problems? mas, the problem kid. hahaha. most ironic. i believe
i'm one with no problems at all, academically, financially, with frens,
or attitude. seriously, i mean my sister shld noe me well, my mom too,
i lose interest in things that easily. anything at all. once i lose interest,
i can't do anything about it. i feel like im forcing myself now, going to school
and all. but have to, no choice. hais...

snapely goods.

2009-07-20T06:28:00.000-07:00

watched harry potter yesterday. and it was great. not that much action.
but lots more of love humor. i mean ron and hermione especially. uber funny.
and ron can be seriously stupid at times. but that's just him. cute!!! hehe...
and tom felton is superb awesome in this movie. more mature. more character.
but it's a sad thing4 snape as he had no choice but to kill dumbledore as he made the
unbreakable vow. SAD!!! just can't wait for the next one, deathly hollows.

and im so going to watch NEW MOON. coming in cinemas in dec 2009.
and also percy jackson.

2009-07-15T19:23:00.000-07:00

im down with an infection in my lungs.
haha. serve you right, mas. the cause is pretty obvious.
i smoke duh. and drinking 5 bottles of raspberry vodka (on jul 4).

so right now, im kinda trying to stop smoking. i've already not smoked for four days.
stop drinking is no problem because im not addicted at all.

and im going to slowly start my ngaji again. and recall everything that i've forgotten about my religion.

i would refrain myself from having any relationship because i need time to correct myself. to slowly regain the person i used to be.

the nerdy, studiuos, innocent mas munira. not that i can become innocent all over again. but at least i try to change myself for the better. for my family, my friends...and everyone close to me.

Amin.

2009-07-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

$327...i've never reached that amount before. but i spent it away like
really fast. haha. $60 for my event. and the rest mostly on food, clothing and my ciggarettes. man, i've got to control. i need to save up for my license.

really need to apologize to nor for causing his eyes to swollen. didn't mean to.
was jus playing ard, didn't expect it to hurt so bad. haha.

school just started again. but i'm still always late for my first lesson. damn.
got to wake up early man. wldn't want to get debarred like mira.

aniwae, did u guys notice mira in the tv. so funny. haha.
"I HAVE THE VOICE!" hahahaahaha!
do catch yar. in Singapore idol ad.

laziness strikes back

2009-07-01T09:27:00.003-07:00

yes. i talk big. but no actions.
as always, nothing to kick me.
im still in square one.

laziness the magnet keeps attracting me.
I try to run, but see I'm not that fast.
I think the first but surely finish last.
I toss and turn, I keep stressin my mind.
I look for peace, but see that I don't attain.

2009-06-29T20:20:00.000-07:00

werk, werk, werk...
tat's what's been going on...
and attention to irfan.

irfan start working again. and
less spend time with me. but better that way.

then, i can concentrate on other important
things like my studies. haha.

negligence on my studies is taking a toll on me.
and tat sucks.

school startring in a week's time. so gotta finish
my homework. i still got 7mths more to go...
so keep fighting mas.

2009-06-22T09:35:00.001-07:00

good riddance...
im back on track.
it's been ages since i've been here.
okae. so what now? i got a lot of 'cleaning this filthy
blog up' to do. it sucks to find out that the place u can pour out ur
anger and complains becomes really filled with filth of others.
so yeah, but then again, do i look like i care? haha...
man, i dun care. u can make this blog as filthy as u want.
go ahead, an open invitation from me, man. im not the one losing anything
any way...i dun give a damn about people outside think of me.
this is my blog, my complain pannel, my negative pour-outs...
u dun agree with me or it, then just piss off man. no use, doing anything,
i ain't gonna even entertain u. as i've already mention at this very blog,
if u dun like me, u can very well kiss goodbye to this blog, and dun bother reading.
a piece of advice, it's useless reading anyway...
only wasting ur time.

thank you very much.

p/s: happy belated 20th birthday, amirah. and happy one mth, irfan. :)

2009-06-03T20:44:00.000-07:00

i hate it when someone tries to change designs.
i respect ppl's design. and i wouldn't want to change them.
even if i want to, i would always ask prior to changing. and
also seek whehter the change is ok to him. or i won't use the design at all.

[ouh, rid, sorry, my friends said that your design doesn't go well with the theme so they are not using ur design, but thank you anyway for helping me to design.]

but a friend of mine, at sch, wanted to add something to my tee shirt design
i made ytd night till 3am. and guess at he added a fucking stupid apple to my splatters. and it looks totally horrible. when i keep hinting to him that it didn't look nice. he jus keep on saying that it looks ok. fuck him larh. arsehole. whoose design is it. this is not the first time.

previously, he did the same thing with my tee shirt design that i designed for the
student council of ite clementi, then he resized it and change it to a landscape [the design is in portrait form]. when it was printed out, i was so disgusted with it. because it is totally revamped. THAT'S NOT DESIGNED BY ME.

once, it's ok.
twice, u r so dead.
when im provoked, u will not like me at all.

2009-05-28T19:44:00.000-07:00

i realise im not the type to stay at one spot for a long time.
i wld love to move around...after a loooooong time moving around,
then i wld return to the same spot but never see it the same way again.

it seems that the way i go abt with my relationships is the same.
i can never stay with one person for a long time, i wld love to
find other guys, and then when im done with looking around, then i wld remember
abt the guy that i was with, and think of wat made me attracted to him.

i do admit im a jerkass, just a girl version. but honestly, i dun really want to
be like this. like everyone else, i would love to settle down too.
but i just can't find the right guy that i noe i can be with for a really really long time.

i wish that someone would come soon though. i do noe my past flames, azri & rid, aren't THE ONE.

i won't stop looking until i find u! standby! hehe.

2009-05-27T19:11:00.000-07:00

so far, my life as an 18 year old is normal.
nothing extreme, nothing boring. just right.

i'm not expecting much, neither am i looking out for
things to do. i just want to finish my studies...
and just earn some money.

moving on with life...

2009-05-25T19:53:00.000-07:00

so what did you do on your birthday?
that is what you all must be asking...
at the stroke of midnight on my birthday, i got sabo-ed
by irfan and shaboi. and i went for period of shouting my excitement
being 18. then, i went to school in
the morning. went home after school.
my mom bought me nasi ayam penyet as my birthday gift.
so i eat. then i watch tv all the way till 5pm. then sleep till 9pm.
went out at 9.40pm to meet my sister. played basketball for a while(only a few mins). then met my fren, ejam, at 10pm, he blanje me makan at pastamania.
then at 11pm, irfan brought me out for a ride with his friends,
then we went to lower seletar reservoir and thon there.

then, i went home and shower-ed. and accompany my brother to the polyclinic.
then bought breakfast at kfc for the whole family. then, aft eating i slept.

the next day, i had to work. then i got my uniform stained with paint, bcoz we had
art & craft for the kids. but im the one ended up being sabo-ed by the kids. so bad.
but i dun get angry coz i can't, they are kids. then after work i went to lena's house, watch lemony snicket's series of unfortunate events and temacsee B, our fav. movie. "U GUYS ARE F*CKING LAME!!" haha.

then, at 10.30pm, i went to khatib to meet with irfan. then we went to yishun dam with his friend, his friend's giflfriend, thon there. talk a lot. then 4am, me & irfan went to the park connector near my house. lepak there for a while and i went home at 6a.m.

slept for a while and woke up at 9am. went to school at 11am. went to IMM to eat.
then at 2pm, class start, kena tegur why i didn't come for morning lesson? hahahaha.
wth.

after school, i went to wait for lena to end work at 5pm. then uncle richard blanja both of us go makan at xin wang hong kong cafe. i ate black pepper chicken chop with rice, lena ate chicken curry noodles, then we drank grass jelly, HK milk tea, watermelon ice-blend, hot horlicks, and then for dessert we ate mango snow ice. while eating, uncle kumar also came to join us, but he only drank. then all four of us talk about the nicest food in singapore. so fun.

then lena and me went to talk with each other, outside macd, together with riders,
and asked some of the riders about what they think about athirah, the new crew, ( so bad, im gossiping). and then we talked about guys (abt apiz, azri, and my irfan.and others...ouh, abt the riders too) and my life and stuff. so funny sia, in the end we went home at 10pm. haha.

that's all.

2009-05-20T20:48:00.000-07:00

ok. to you, azri, i am going to make a confession here.
because im too afraid to face you.

firstly, my confession.
i cheated on you. yes. twice in fact. i dated two guys while im with you.
and both of them didn't know that im with you. and that's how far i am going to
say. i won't say more.

secondly, i want a break.
yes. i don't deserve you.
i thought i would be able to love you again.
but so far, i dun feel anything more for you than just missing someone's company.
i dun love you at all. and i feel like im just pretending to be in love, when i really am not.

yes. i'm a bitch for breaking up with you like this.
do you why i dun want to celebrate my birthday? because i dun want to be with you anymore.

please let me go.

2009-05-13T20:26:00.000-07:00

ok. first thing, i need to make a confession.
but i'm too afraid to do so. I'm afraid to face it.
the reaction that comes with it. i don't want to face it.
neither do i want to hurt anyone. the thing is i noe what might happen.
and i'm afraid of it. i won't noe how to react to it. however, if i dun confess now,
it would only complicate matters later when the truth is accidentally spilled by someone else. it would create a really big mess. arrrrgh, im in dilemma.

forgetting this dilemma of mine, i could still find time to get a new hobby. i start to learn how to fish together with my wrk fren, lena and her frens, nick, apiz & dulah. haha. must say that they are "kaki gerek" people. i'm not really good at fishing yet. for the pst few days, i've been fishing a lot especially at night at east cost park. i only noe how to cast only at the moment. and next time, i'm so gonna catch a fish. i can't wait for that day. haha.

i think i'm going to buy myself a rod,reel, and the whole set larh...as a gift for my birthday. my own birthday gift. ouh yarh, it's coming. NXT WEEK ONLY!!! haha. so my frens better think of what gifts to buy me. i'm not "cerewet" so it's ok even if u buy a g-string or maybe just a lighter for me. or anything piggy. haha.

i won't noe what i want to do on my birthday. i just want to go with the flow. i dun want to plan anything coz im scared it won't go as planned. and looking at my mood swings of late, i dun think i wld be happy if things dun go as planned. so i'll just wait and see what happens.

p.s: i wld prefer food.

2009-05-11T20:11:00.000-07:00

i've been busy lately.
planning an event is not that easy as i thought it would.
if planning it is that difficult, let alone running it.
damn. i'm going to use up all the energy i have for each day.

well, i could still breath here. well, i wish i could.
now, even my blog is suffocating me. enough of school and work.
my personal life is killing me too.

10 days away to my birthday. i don't know if it's a happy thing anymore.
i don't feel excited anymore. i used to be. i'm not happy and i don't want to be.
i feel terrible.

and no one cares. well, at least the people i told about my unhappiness doesn't.
i know my nyet, and babi utan, will. FOREVER. i love you guys. muacks.

p.s im using my M1 no. oredi.

2009-05-05T12:58:00.000-07:00

im at my climax of my newly found addiction.
i shall not publicly say what it is. some of you may know.
some may not. u're welcome to make a guess tho.

it's finally may. and this is my "may" skin.
nice? i like that it is so simple. and not so messy.
clean.

maybe the picture is not the image anyone would want to
potray of themselves. but this is really what i am right now.
maybe some of you may not be able to accept it. i can understand that.
but i hope that my frens would not neglect me just because of this.

to me, may is the month of celebration. yes. because there are two important
dates in this month. one, my father's birthday on 16 may. and of course, my long-awaited 18th birthday which falls on 22 may.

i can't really describe to you my excitement and anxiousness.

anyway, it's 16 more days to that big day.

p.s im self-booked on 22 may. azri, please make urself available on that day.

ily, baby. ~reira. 4.12am (6 May 2009)

2009-04-22T21:17:00.000-07:00

20th april, monday
963 has been always irritating. and todae, it really made me flare up like hell.
i was waiting for 963 for like more than 20 minutes. in the end, i use the train.
shit man, waste my money only.

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21st april, tuesday
happy birthday, aidillah. *quack* quack*

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22nd april, wednesday
prize-giving ceremony from 2.30pm to 3.00pm. and mdm alamelu is back from her training. can see the bump on her tummy oredi. it's oredi 3months and a half. wow.

2009-04-19T22:51:00.000-07:00

16th april, thursday
rid came to my school. for his student seminar. dey presented their
"giving back to community". met up with him. and his friends. khairulddin was dere too and his gf. then, 5a1(2007) had a barbeque. rid invited me along. so i went along. then met old friends like wei sheng, felicia, ashler, kok king. ms anna low was dere too. since dey noe me as PIGGY, they asked me to eat a lot. haha. took lot s of pictures. but it's with rid. i haven't had time to ask him for it. soon, kay?

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17th april, friday
met airah on the bus, 962, otw to woodlands, otw to interchange to go school. den rina too. dey having their orientation. finally, dey going to school.

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18th april, saturday
we had a large order and orange bowl. they also requested to do activities for the kids.the large order was 275 mchicken and apple pie. six bottles of orange syrups. two topcats and 1 star. me, amy & saiful. for canberra CC. around admiralty area, near evergreen sec. den at night, receive a call frm azri. indra invited him to go pancing at semb park. then, azri ajak me as well. so i went along. dey walk wak hassan area there. so scary. my hair all stood up. indra mad fun of my voice.
he say my voice like bapok. hahaha. "diam arh u!" wen hm the nxt dae when the sun rose.

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19th april, sundy
i didn't even had a sleep. went i gt hm, i straight away went to shower and then to work. then i work till 5.30pm. so tired sia. seriously. then, i slept the whole evening. until azri called at night. asked me to meet him. so i went to meet him.
and went home at 3am.

2009-04-13T22:22:00.000-07:00

13th april, monday
firstly, i would like to wish Ridaudin, the chipmunk, happy 19th birthday.
sorry for not preparing a birthday gift for you this year. is it possible for you to wait? i promise it'll be a great gift, kay?

so it's the first day of year 2. i saw her...omg. but nth happened. so ok. it's cool.
damn, i got a pregnanat lady as my class advisor. Mdm Alamelu. but she's a nice person. she taught me office fundamentals in yr 1, semester 1. she really very gentle in her teaching approach. well, we'll just see how things goes.

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14th april, tuesday
happy 1 year, dear friends. yes, it's been one year since i first met my ite friends last year on this very day. it's been a wonderful year. sort of grateful that i've met these people. they sort of change my life.
ouh, met haslam, the guy with the red r1. gosh, i must say he has one hot bike there.
and a bonus, he's a hot stuff too. haha. fortunately, im attached. and i love azri. haha. or else, i'll go crazy. haha.

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15th april, wednesday
missed school. was too tired and sleepy.

2009-04-10T08:20:00.000-07:00

FF601 reunites.

2009-04-08T06:48:00.000-07:00

april 6, monday
worked in the morning at 9am till 4pm.
azri came to my workplace to wait for me.
told me, he had something to say to me.
but i was a little late. i went to change first.
at around 4.20pm, then i finally got out of the restaurant.
then, he gave a bouquet of flowers. honestly speaking, that is like
the first time i ever ever received a flower from anyone ever. it's like...
i was really touched. i never thought azri would be one to do that for me.
haha. i guess i inderestimate his romantic-ness. but he told me it's his first
time ever giving flowers to anyone too. haha. guess there's so much me and azri do for
the first time for both of us. like the pastamania incident too. haha. it's great to do this kind of things for the first time together. coz it leaves a impact on ur life.
watever happens in the future, it leaves a beautiful memory. im thankful for that.

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april 8, tuesday
worked from 12noon till 8pm. den lepak with bunn, yat, yassin, pearl, suhaimi, ejam
& lam. tat night was the night i ever drank beer for the first time. i'm super not used to it lorh. coz i usually drink liquor, they taste better. like wines, vodka, scotch. dey are great. but certainly not beer. haha.

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april 9, wednesday
didn't work dat dae. but then i got a call from my manager. had crew leader meeting
at 3pm. so i had to cancel my plan to watch movie with azri tat afternoon.
anyway, during the meeting, we had a test. and i failed it coz i was caught by surprise. i didn't prepare myself. damn. afte the meeting, i bump into my girlfriends. haha. they were just going to causeway point. and so i followed them.
it was like a reunion, FF601 reunion. the six of us. me, afiqah, humairah, sharifah, noorina, hidayah. it's been quite a while since hte six of us got together. i really miss my friends. haha. pictures in the next post. sorry guys. hehe.
then at nite, i decided to pick azri up from school. the funny thing was i ended up being late. and he had to wait for me. haha. we went to watch "The Unborn" at cineleisure. then after the movie, we went to bukit panjang, and lepak there with khairul. played stress and taitee. haha. funnyx3. then when going home, we just couldn't let each other og. haha. so we reluctantly went home. anyway, happy 3rd mthsary, baby. i love you.

2009-04-05T07:42:00.000-07:00

april 4, saturday
i woke quite late to find myself feeling a litte hot inside.
i just thought it coz of the weather. but when i was going to work,
i had a really irritating headache. and my neck is in pain. then, i asked
one of my colleagues to check my temperature, only to find out that im
feverish. had to end work early. went to the clinic. and tat visit burn
everything that i had left after paying my hp bill. and now i have to think
of how to survive, the whole of nxt week. damn. and i've left with two ciggs only.
how can i last? at nite, aizat & mirul asked me to lepak, so i came down. and then,
dey all like bully me larh. ask me to do this and that. so bad lorh dey all. and den
dey laugh at me. and kept saying i need to exercise more. it's bcoz i lazy that's
why always get sick. haha. thankfully, abg bull save me. if not, i dunno wat i'll do.
like i say, there's limit to my patience. hehe. then we went back hm like 10.30pm like dat. i went to mac first to take my pen frm naszri, rider. take my pen and 4got to give back. some more it's my fav pen lorh. thankfully, i remembered about it.
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april 5, sunday
suppose to work today. but i asked my bro to pass a msg to the manager that im still unwell. but actually, i wanted to follow my mom, shopping at johor. todae we bought some new t-shirts, new shoes and ate a lot. hehe. and met mak nga. haha. i guess it's mak nga's first time see me teasing ayu, and ayu merajok. ouh ya, about her, ayu merajok just coz she didn't wat she wants. omg, and here i thought she's all grown up oredi. i take back what i thought. she's still the same spoiled brat. omg, get a life. argh! im really disgusted with her sometimes. but help it, she's still family.

2009-04-02T01:01:00.000-07:00

hey sorry i've been away for a while.
i had lots of oppurtunity to go online.
but was a little lazy to update my blog.

march 30, monday
wanted to just lepak with amirul. a fren i got to noe since 2007.
he used to school at css. but we lost contact for a while coz
he went for NS in dec 1, 2008. but recently contacted each other again.
haha. and we became lepak buddies. so todae, wanted to lepak with him and
his frens. but then, he brought me to his house (he wanted to change his clothes).
both his parents, siblings are at home. kinda awkward. i didn't expect to meet them.
and then, they wanted to eat out so amirul had to follow. but asked me along.
his parents too. at first, i didn't want to. but they insisted. so i went along.
we ate pizza hut. and dat was my first meal of the day. haha. a big first meal.
then, we walked around the woodlands bazaar. then, he send me home. otw, azri messaged me. he just finished class. ouh, it's azi's first day of school. he's schling at SCHOOL OF APPLIED STUDIES, taking specialist diploma in tourism and hospitality manegement. so i went to meet him after that. went to his house.
we did a lot of catching up. i miss him a lot.

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april 1, wednesday
happy april's fools everyone. not much pranks going on today. i had to work.
so yeah. den after work i went to lepak with amirul, matin, bujang, bunN, shahidah,
amira, bob, and some other people tat i dun realli noe. and ouh, one of munir's fren. i 4got his name. bujang was going to serve his jail term soon. and getting his 12 cane strokes. they all kinda had a rehearsal of it. haha. veri funnie. haha. then, police came to screen us. coz we are like so noisy. shit larh. one of the police man is so irritating larh. wat? we didn't like talk so loud. we are whispering to one another. then, he like, "can u all shut up?!". wtf? he's so rude lorh. then we all like kinda dun haf mood oredi. and it's midnight. so we all went home after that. then i msg azri. he's just reached home from class.

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april 2, thursday
i'm at home rite now. wished i could meet azri. but he can't.
and i didn't have the mood to go out. so yeah, i'm at home. doing nothing
but going online...watch kenshin samurai x. and prince of tennis. of late,
i'm kinda into the golden pairs fanatism. haha. eiji and oishi. cutest prince tennis couple ever. haha. and inui, nvr get tired of asking his members to drink his juice. hahaha. ok. back to reality... so im getting my pay tonight at 11pm. hopefully, it's about $250++. coz i still haven't pay my phone bill of $135. and i also need to refund afiqah and zaki for the contact lens. so yeah, im only going out today at 11pm to check my pay only. and maybe check my schedule 4 tmr. im still not sure whether i'll be working tmr. hope not.

ciao.

2009-03-28T12:32:00.000-07:00

march 27, friday
did nothing really for the whole day.
initially planned, to somewhat plan
a surprise date for azri. but he got meeting.
like realli dissappointed. but it's okay.
i'll live. so yeah, at night, went to lepak
with my new neighbor. not really a neighbor, neighbor.
he lives two blocks away. we like sort of walked the
whole sembawang. coz he really didn't get to sort
of get to know the whole sembawang. so i kinda did
a tour for him. tired legs. haha.
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march 28, saturday
wat would expect from reira on saturday?
she'll be working. yes. that's right. i work
every weekends in case some of you still does not know.
12noon to 8pm. i was kinda pissed off with someone at work today.
i really don't like people not putting their every effort in their
work. i was training this one person counter. but he's not putting
much attention and effort at learning it. and i got really angry.
i just threw him out there. without any assistance. i wanted him
to feel the pain of being abandoned. damn him okay. i mean i'm like
training you for the past 4hrs. and nothing goes into your stupid
darn brain. wtf sia. well, at least i kept my cool and didn't turn physical.
or else, i think i would have given you at super tight slap in the face.
but then again, i don't like getting my hands dirty. i prefer u suffer
by urself. i hope i won't have to work with you ever again. ok. that was great.
i feel good after letting it out. whee~

ciao.
love you baby.

2009-03-26T09:37:00.000-07:00

march 25, wednesday.
i couldn't really sleep the day before.
i really have no idea why?
den i woke up really early. like at 5am.
den i received a message from whom i thought
wouldn't message me ever again. but i was glad he did.
i know i may be the stupidest person in the whole world.
as some of you all know, i have a really big pride. once i tried,
and if i fail, i won't want to try again. basically, i'm a loser,
a coward. with no dignity whatsoever.
i don't know what i want. but when i lose something that i already have,
i began to realise how much that thing means to me. but it's too late.
i've lost it already. and thanks to my big pride, i can't never get it back.
and so the sms conversation started out with, "i miss you." and in between there's
a "i want us to be together again". so u get the story.
i went to meet up with him. i just realise it's been like more than a month since
i last seen him. i realise how much i miss him so much. and his smile that never fails
to melt into me. and irritating but adorable teasing, never changes. gosh, i am really stupid
to let him go back on Mar 3rd.
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i guess i should really be grateful that i was given a second chance.
now, given this chance, i have to make it all better again. i know i want this.
and i'm not going to do anything that will make me lose it again. i'm going to prove
to my family and myself that this will work. and hopefully, he'll think the same way.
thank you so much, azri. for giving me a second chance. for giving us a second chance.
i love you.
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airah,
sorry about the pictures. as you know, i am the laziest friend u ever have.
i'm kinda lazy sending the pictures. haha. dun get mad okay. u've turned 18.
so u must look at things in a positive way. hehe.
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march 26, thursday
i spent all day at home. doing nothing but watch tv, sleep, eat, go toilet
and some more watching tv. den only at 9pm, i was allowed to use the internet.
i message him a lil. i miss him. wish i sneak out at night just to meet him.
but like i said, it's just a wish. there's risk involve. i can't get myself in trouble now.
not at the time, when i'm financially unstable. i just received my phone bill. and it's already giving
headaches. $135.05 due on 28 march. where do i find that much in a short amount of time?
i think i'm going to be sick. i really need to find a job with better pay. but it's really hard to find one. and school's starting soon. dear god, help me.
aniway, have a look at bf's blog. i made it for him. coz he deleted his last one after our breakup.
http://itsazri.blogspot.com
hehe. yeah i noe it's similar to my old one. hehe.

ciao. and i love you, baby.

2009-03-23T08:03:00.000-07:00

happy belated birthday, monyet. haha. finally 18 huh? u're gonna love it. i tok big saje. di sini lom lagi 18, kat sane dah eh. bagus larh tu kak. next sape eh? kan itik. hahaha.

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okay so on thursday, 20 March.
me(babi), aidillah(itik), airah(monyet), syhella(lembu) and farah(sotong)
went to eat at The Manhattan Fish Market at Plaza Singapura.
We ate Fried Prawns, Fried Clamari for the appetizers.
and the Flaming Prawn for the main course.
and desserts, brownie with ice cream.
haha, was quite full but not really full. haha.
then, we went to watch COMING SOON.
it's kinda funny. not the movie but the experience
watching that movie with all of them.
coz syhella was like shouting so loud that the whole cinema
can hear her distinctly. and i was laughing. coz it was funny
hearing her shouts. haha. but the movie was quite scary too.
well, of course, we also took lots of pictures,
let me share with you some of them.

me & yoda.

full portrait of my dress code

the five of us. farah, airah, me, syhella, aidillah.

farah & me

aidillah & me

2009-03-15T03:55:00.000-07:00

friday, mar 13th
i was sick. fever, cough and flu all at once.
so, not much story to talk about.

saturday, mar 14th
i worked at 12noon to 8pm. then, went home to change.
to go to east coast park to thon. wit a'an, aqib & kal.
haha.

sunday, mar 15th
thon all the way till morning. at 6.40am
went to eat at ecp macd, then at 7.00am
we went back to sembawang. a long ride in the bus
bus 853.

batt went flat couldn't take any pictures. that sux.

ciao
reira. 7:01pm

2009-03-12T23:35:00.000-07:00

sunday, mar 8. with lena and moi. otw to tekka mall.
we went to buy ladoo. then when to the usual spot at somerset.

wednesday, mar 11. went karaoke-ing rite aft work. wit lena and farhan. so fun. haha. didn't really like ppl to hear me singing. coz i suck. but i let loose. haha.
photofunia.com. have fun making pictures like this one.

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ciao.
reira. 2:57pm

2009-03-06T07:45:00.000-08:00

i've been busy mugging for my EOY exams for the past two days.
i think im going to get eye bags soon enough. today's actually
sembawang secondary school's achievement day. better known as speech day.
unfortunately, i didn't want to attend it. laziness is one of the reason. the other
reason is that i don't see a reason for me to go. i rather continue with my revision.
so yeah, but i did went out today to buy something to cook. i cooked a vegetarian dish today. it was awesome. green pepper, red pepper, yellow pepper, baby corn & fried tau kwa. stir-fried all together with maggi seasoning. super delicious. haha. packed some for my colleague to taste. went to workplace. lena didn't come for work. she called to ask me to take over her shift. but i couldn't. so in the end, she had to go work. pity her lots. then at 8pm, went out for a drink with amirul. he was like talking to me in english all the way. it was kind of awkward. but i guess it's ok. haha. then went to pick amirah from work. and now im here. weee~

ciao.
reira. 12.03am

2009-03-05T02:59:00.000-08:00

My condolences to my sworn bro having lost a dear family member.
i have no idea...this two months a lot of the ppl close to me loses
someone dear.
honestly speaking, i have no idea how to react to them. i can only
send my condolences to them.
i had not yet experience losing someone really really close to me.
obviously, i wouldn't know how it feels. so please forgive me if i offend
you in any way. sometimes i don't think about what i speak. i can insensitive.
please accept my forgiveness.

All the art of living lies in a fine mingling of letting go and holding on.
- Henry Ellis

2009-03-04T21:10:00.000-08:00

hei peepz.
there's actualli a reason for me nt informing
u all my new blog url.
coz i still want u all to go through the old one.
hehe. i wld still be putting something dere for all to see.
like new music videos. or notices. or advertisements that are
relevant to u ppl. so pls dun change my blog link in ur links
sections. kay. orite i love you guys.

2009-03-03T13:15:00.000-08:00

FYI, i broke up wit azri.
yes. i did.
change is in need. my blog skin i meant.
so yeah. hope you like it.
kinda makes me happy.
tho there's some greens. but wth,
i dun care animore. it's just a color.

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fiqah,
cn i give u one kick to cut you into halves?
haha. u noe wat im talking abt.
yes u do.

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zul,
hey take care of uself yarh.
go buy cough syrup. u r getting more worse
day by day sia. and dun 4get
ur appointment on sat. orite.

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lena,
u...biler nk kua lagi? haha.
kay2. i noe u're onli free on wed.
i plan a girl's day out fer both of us kay.
i miss u larh. padahal, aru jumpe smlm kat keje.
haha.

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it's been only a day for the revision week
and im already bored. hais...and a few more days to go...
BORING!!!

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xoxo,
reira.

2009-03-02T16:13:00.000-08:00

don't ask me for a reason.
this is actually why i don't like
being in a relationship.
i had enough with my previous one.
and now, it became a terrible mistake.
i knew after all that i wasn't ready to open
my heart. but i took all risks.
i am stupid, okay. i admit to that.
just leave me alone already.

2009-02-16T06:00:00.000-08:00

nice? haha. my facebook badge.
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to dearest.
nth easy. and everyone's lazy.
haha. but just believe u can.
then, u will.

support u always!!
love you.

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to my dear customers,
sorry contact lens late.
some miscommunication wit supplier.
i promise by this week, i'll distribute it to all.
prepare the money k.
hehe.

thx 4 ur support.
total contact lens sold: 30+ pairs.

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to nyet & babi utan,
lots ofl ove to u guys.
for making my dae always.
haha. and nyet...
i forgot where we stop the story.
but it was fun, rite?
haha. bi utan, let's walk ard some more.
haha.

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aslam,
thks 4 accompanying me to
watch valkyrie.
nxt time, i treat u larh k.
haha. aniways, one dae u show me ur skating skills lah.
see ya ard, dude.

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2009-02-12T23:01:00.000-08:00

i bought myself a new phone.
i needed one. i need to distract myself
from this emptiness.
i need something to fill me.
anything at all.

so i bought a phone.

school doesn't work for me.
it's just a routine. it doesn't distract.
and work doesn't boost me.
it's just a getaway from home.
but i still feel empty.

but i realize something.
the phone doesn't work too.
not literally. but it doesn't distract me.
doesn't interest me.

help me oredi. im going crazy.

2009-02-08T04:52:00.000-08:00

pictures taken on jan 30, just before chingay parade.

2009-02-08T04:43:00.000-08:00

Picture updates.

jan 31, marina square macdonald's wit feeqah.

jan 31, at one fullerton with mira.

feb 8, home before work.

feb 6, scribbling on my book.(negative effect)

feb 6, scribbling name on book.

2009-01-20T06:19:00.000-08:00

SUPPORT LOCAL MUSIC
there's sooo many good bands here in singapore.
and produce really good music.
just they don't get recognize.
it's not fair for them.
so let's hear them out.

Bands like
- Plain Sunset [my favourite]
- Astroninja [they really cool and wacky]
- Allura [inch has a great, awesome voice and I LOVE THE ENGLISH]
- Electrico [more familiar to some]
- Great Spy Experiment [quite well-known in singapore]
they are really awesome bands. hear it out for them.

and support local music. tune in to live'n'loaded. tuesday, 27 Jan
@ 8.30pm on Channel 5.
to watch performances by local music acts.
awesome!!!

2009-01-18T10:39:00.000-08:00

M.I.B
or maybe it's M.B.I.B.
MAS BACK IN BLACK.
dyed back my hair black.
reason: school warned me twice already.
it's nt allowed in ma sch to haf brown shade
kinda uncool, my school is.
boohoo. kinda dun wan to dye it black.
i tot i wanna be rebellious a lil and go to school
with pink steaks and some blond streaks as well.
but nah, i dun want to cause myself trouble.
im gonna take my EOY exams soon in March.
dun wanna get debarred even b4 i get a chance to take the paper.
so yeah, im back to the old me i guess.
but just not the specky me. i think u can permanently say bye2
to specky massie. yeAH.

orite. yesterdae, mira finally met azri in person.
after the live'n'loaded tour, we met wit him and his frens.
coz he happens to be dere as well.
mira said that as long he doesn't mistreat me in any way. she's fine.
BUT i miss him. i was so scared to even hold his hands, jus coz mira's dere.
haha. elehx3 nk shy2 pulak si mas. hahahahaha.

ok i tok so much. i guess no one's even reading this.
if there is someone, please leave me a msg at my tagboard.
and say, "MAS, U'RE STUPID!!".
flood it with tat if u must.
thank you.

2009-01-16T04:07:00.000-08:00

a new artist.
taegoon.
debut mv: Call me.
in video, there's jaejoong and park shin hye.
rating of song: 3/5
video: 4/5
rating of the guy [omg! reira. haha] : 4/5

there's also going to be a new girl band.
called After School (AS).
one of them includes park ga hee.
micky yoochun's ex-girlfriend.
rating : 2/5

oops. sorry. but i prefer guys. haha.

A.Z.R.I

2009-01-16T02:28:00.000-08:00

it's been one week.
i noe it's only a while.
but like what that girl frm
transporter 3 said,
"it's about feeling not knowing".
yes, i feel something for him.
for a while, im not sure what it was.
till, i felt it. the loss. when he got angry wit me.
i knew den. i love him. yes i do. if i didn't, it wouldn't prick me hard,
when he said those hurting words to me.
i love kissing him.
i love watching movies with him.
i love talking to him.
i love his teasing.
i love his touch.
i love his scent.
i love him.
i want him.
argh!

watched 4 movies in a week.
transporter 3, seven pounds, bedtime stories and red cliff 2.
and all wit azri. haha.

wit all the stress going on at school,
azri really help me de-stress by spending time wit me.
thanks a lot to him. tho i get insomniatic thinking of him
sometime. haha.
some dae i'll upload his pic aite?

hey u guys love this song? i love it. haha. not tat i want to make love.
just love the song only. haha.

ouh yarh, congrats to rina and dynella for being able to go poly and doing
well in o lvl. so unlike me. haha. but hey, let's meet at poly when i graduate
frm ite, rite?
dun get too proud ok? poly not that easy okay.
im not saying ite is. it's not that easy too. it's all depend on your efforts in
your studies. so yarh, do well, aite.
and keep in contact. love u guys.
FF601 forever!!

2008-12-31T23:59:00.000-08:00

i went to lavender to collect my new passport coz mi old one is due to expire in mar 09.
with mira in the afternoon. looking like this:

ok. tat sux. haha.
i dunno wat i was thinking.

then met up wit dad, mom, ayu & munir.
we went psp hunting. haha. wanting to buy one.
but nope, decided not to.

the whole dae the only transportation we used is either train or bus.
and we as a family haven't done tat in a very long time.
and it was fun. riding the train or bus wit ur family rather than alone.

then, at night i went to bugis again.
to meet up with zul & his gang.
we went to the shisha house.
then at 10pm some of them went to eat at singapore
zam zam restaurant. i didn't bing along cash wit me so i sat
wit those not eating
near sultan mosque. and a bored me took out the camera to take some pics.

and tat's zul. no. dun get the wrong idea.
we're not together. he was just teasing me.
he didn't really kiss me.

so at 11pm, we went to marina bay.
to catch the fireworks of coz.
then i made my new yr resolution.
and tat is to spend more time with my family and
friends to make lots of happy memories together.

anyways, HAPPY NEW YEAR ppl.

2008-12-09T02:25:00.001-08:00

forgive me for updating late.
lil problems came up with
internet access.
aniways here goes.

- 26 November -

rayu came back from melbourne.
me, mira, munir, dad and mum went to pick her up.
it was kinda funny. but im the most anxious. haha.
i tot i hated her. haha. but i carried her like a crazy girl
tat has never seen her annoying lil sis for yrs. haha.
well it was onli 10 daes tho. she bought me a bag as a souvenir.
and a flying pig. seriously. damn. haha

- 29 November -

azh's birthdae. invited me & mira to sentosa for a swim.
and went to vivo ltr on to eat the cake. piccies.

- 8 December -

went to johor 4 a hari raya haji gathering.
lots of yummy food. had lots of fun catching up wif
cuzzies. AND GOT BULLIED BY MY NEPHEW, QUAN AND MY LIL CUZ, SUKI.
lil devils they are.

2008-11-25T06:47:00.000-08:00

25 November

Someone asked me to do this.

1) Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
2) At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged& list down their names
3) People who get tagged need to post 10 weird things/habits/little know facts as well as state the rules clearly
4) No tagging back!

1] I'm a two-faced.
2] I have a smelly fart.
3] My nickname is BABI which actually means pig.
4] I don't know how to save.
5] I'm extremely nonsensical.
6] I've never been kissed.
7] My room is a pig sty. SERIOUSLY!!!!!
8] I talk in my sleep.
9] I like to praise myself. (since no one praises me)
10] I lie too well. (hehe. ok, this is what i mean by praising myself)

THESE PEOPLE MUST DO THIS!!

1. Afiqah
2. Airah
3. Ridaudin
4. Muna
5. Faiz
6. Hayley
7. Mira
8. Anne
9. Ayu
10. Rina

ok. enjoy guys & gals. muakcs.

2008-11-24T20:10:00.000-08:00

- 25 nov -

hey, yesterdae was my mom & dad 25th anniversary.
wow, im so proud of them 25 yrs of marriage.
congrats!!!
im sure it takes a lot of effort from both parties
to keep the marriage for long time.

2008-11-23T01:17:00.000-08:00

Okie, new updates.
dun you guys just love it when i update.
haha. well, maybe not. maybe im just praising myself.
ok. i have this stupid prob with my hotmail. and im having hard time to
send email to my supplier. so yeah, dear supplier, if u're reading this,
i might take a longer time to reply. and also to my dear customer, please bear ith me for a little while. meanwhile, if u haf any urgent matter to talk to me abt, pls do give me a call or u can msg me. no charges for the moment until my email is ok.

so let's move on to ME. this week, wat did i do?
hrm, monday nothing. just school. then tuesday was stompAIDS.
i haf posted about it on the last post. then wednesday, i actually skipped school,
my body was aching after the stompAIDS event. what would you expect, when you did lost of the logistics work. haha. but tat's just me, i like involving miself in high level activity. then i went back to school on thursday, didn't go for the first lesson though. haha. woke up late. tat sounds kinda usual of me. hehe. well, aniways, i got miself A BIG PILE OF HOMEWORK TO DO.
1] Our logo, Our Slogan {for ETP}
2] My HR report
3] Survey 4 the bbq
4] BCM Memorandum Exercises

well, congratulations to me. haha. ok fine. i'll try to finish it. if i can't finish them, i'll beg for extra time. haha.
then fridae, went to school in da morning, ended at 1.
then went to meet one of my customer for payment.
thanks aniway, if u're reading this.

then, waited 4 amirah, then went to eat at cavana. then went home. and slept all the day. ok tat's just me.

so tat's all folks. me and my BOOOORINGGGG life. well, it goes on & on.
\
ciaoz.

2008-11-18T03:11:00.000-08:00

enjoy dbsk's new music video. the song is called Wrong Number.
My junsu is getting more & more handsome. hehehe.
and jaejoong's first time rapping, it's good!!

this is alice nine newest music video.
title: cross game.
tora's got a new highlight. green.
and shou as beautiful as ever. ouh. the song's nice too!!

and today was my class stompAIDS event.
i did the deco of the whole event.
todae was fun.
aft the event, meet up wit humairah a.k.a monyet
to bet something frm her but i end talking to her for like 2 hrs. outside her house.
hahaha. i really miss her.

2008-10-24T09:07:00.000-07:00

gals and guys.
ok. first i need to apologize
for something.
i will be quite busy with my blogshop
for a while.
so there isn't much for me to update here.
i'll try my best to put some updates though.
bear with me ok?

yeah, i have put up some things at my blogshop.
so do check it out okay?

here are some things to look out for in the near future
for the shop:
- flat covered shoe spree
- eye cosmetic pre-order
- printed random tops
- selling of accesories
- korean hoodies

enough of my shop.
let's talk about me.
i went bowling todae.
just the three of us.
siti, azh and me.
i took some pictures.
i'll upload them later.

i broke my fingernails again.
just like last time when i played bowling.
the ironic thing was i striked.
everytime i broke my fingernail, i striked.
altho i was elated at my win.
but im kinda upset that my nails had to suffer.
hais...

but who cares? i had fun. siti had fun.
and azh had fun.
after we were all bored.
so we decided to do some shopping
at BHG Bugis Junction.
well, i didn't really shop. haha.
i just look ard.
and tried a few clothes. haha.
wanted to take a picture.
but batt went flat.
wtf?
haha.
that's it. that's me.
for todae.
ciaoz.

2008-10-21T03:13:00.000-07:00

ok. hey im selling shawls at the moment.
at my blogshop.
do check it out okay.

2008-10-13T22:15:00.000-07:00

so okay. sch stars~
and yes, im back to updating late again.
coz now i won't have time to go to the comp like last semester.
last semester i have office application.
but i dun have anymore for this semester.
so yeah. tat's how it is.

but i like this semester's modules and time table.
there's one dae i start late.
and there's a day i go home early.
on mon i will start sch at 10am.
and end at 5pm.
tue, start at 9 and end at 3pm.
wed, start at 12noon and end at 5pm.
thur, start at 9 and end at 5pm.
fri, as per normal, 9am-1pm.

so yeah that's my schedule.
new modules.

*entrepreneurship
*business communication
*principle of marketing

and the necessary lifeskills and sports & wellness.
okay. ciaoz.

2008-10-06T09:55:00.000-07:00

have to love this new song by son dambi.
and rite now, the music on my blog is a remix
of lies by big bang with the background song
of cry eye of son dambi. i like the remix.
the artists didn't do this remix. someone else did.

and wonder girls have a new song too. titled Nobody.
here's the music video.

ouh, i will be working for the next few days.
so i might not update for a while. bear with it for a while
okay? once i start school again. i'll update. aite?
okay. ciaoz peepz.

2008-10-01T22:12:00.000-07:00

yes. it's HARI RAYA.
and i went to three houses. my grandma frm my dad side.
my grandma frm my mom side. and my step-grandma on my mom side.
total collection is $102. went home early coz younger siblings have sch the next dae.
had my family frm jb came over. mak long's family.
so long haven't met my cuz frm that side. haha.
dey all teased my height. and called mi hantu gala. wth?!
so bad rite. but i noe dey just kidding. haha.
but had lots of laughs. fun dae.

2008-09-28T15:09:00.000-07:00

what we all were doing on sundae.
munir on the comp. covering his face wif his guitar.
mom cutting chicken.
mira cleaning the frigde.
me frying tahu.
and ayu sleeping...haiz...

den at nite everyine gathered to watch F1
damn, Felipe Massa, caused so much drama.
and Kimmy Raikonen, was such a sad thing crashing when the race was abt to end.
well, congratz to Fernando Alonso, N. Rosberg & Lewis Hamilton.

DBSK comeback performance.
dey perform three songs.
1. Love in the Ice.
2. Hey(Don't Bring Me Down)
3. Jumun(Mirotic)

2008-09-27T14:57:00.000-07:00

all the kuih2~ woohoo...

so hey. yesteday night was F1 practice. and all of my family member watched on channel 5. it's the talk of the town now. the first F1 night race, first time in Singapore. woohoo~
Fernando Alonso of the Renault team, got the fastest timing for the practice session.
cool, huh? even tho he didn't perform well on sat. he eventually came up first for this first ever formula 1 night race.

so enough of that. i actually went to work at the time. i was suppose to wrk in the morning but i came in the afternoon. got scolded really badly. but i dun give a damn.
im dun feel my wrking spirit animore. im bored wrking dere. but im too lazy to find another job. haha. tat's me. i guess that part of me will never change. hehe.

omg, just a few more daes to hari raye. im getting so excited. can't wait for the well, u noe $$$. hehehe. and go out wif friends. miss them much. but i dunno if we r planning to have one. i hope we have. pls do....

:)

2008-09-24T18:30:00.000-07:00

Here are some videos of JUNSU during the 4th album showcase.

*videos are not mine*

and here's one of the live singing from the showcase that i really like.
their voices are awesome. the title of this song is 'Look at...the sunset'.
the lyrics written by my dear junsu. this song is produced by him. good, right?

2008-09-24T17:20:00.000-07:00

hey there peepz. im back with a new look.
bright. colourful. & lively.
and simple too. hehe.
a big thanks to insanezinc
for this wonderful skin.

UPDATES ON BLOG
1. Change of skin
2. Change of music to Mirotic, Dbsk's 4th album title song.
3. style for my profile is totaly different now.
4. and lastly, i just made a blogshop.
pls have a look. orite.
im having a trial on this.
i dunno if it's gonna go well.
but if it does, im going to do wholesales, sprees, pre-orders as well.
but for now im only selling instocks.
so yeah do look around okay.

I WANNA PROGRESS ON...
1. im trying to write more lively.
posting of more pictures. of not only my face. haha.
of interestings things around me or interesting experiences.
2. more colours
im trying to make my posts as colourful as possible.
3. of coz, i want my blogshop to grow.
i hope i get lots of customers.
4. i want to slowly change my whole outlook.
my dressing style especially. im changing from dull girl
to bright girl. but i noe it's gonna be difficult. so
yeah anticipate my change.
5. AND i trying my very best to a really active blogger.

so good luck to me.
and good luck to everybody too.
=)

2008-09-23T20:51:00.000-07:00

okay. so today finally came. omg.
dbsk did a news conference and then a showcase.
and they had a mini concert as well.
i can't wait for them to finally have a comeback stage
at Mnet, MBC Music Choice or Inkigayo. hope someone upload it up
in HQ. then i can rip it. hehe.
omg im going crazy.
solbi has a new mini album as well. titled do it do it.
the song is very upbeat. but to me, it doesn't really suit her image.
but hey, she's brave enuf to carry offf that kind of image.
but mira thinks that seo in young wld do better. but i like solbi more.
not that i hate seo in young. i just prefer solbi. hehe...
i can't wait for the episodes of hwanhee and hwayobi. are they going to show it soon?
in case u dunno wth im toking abt, im actually referring to the new couple in WGM.
yeah. if u still dunno. dun bother to noe. hehe.

this was their duet together.
altho i dun like hwanhee that much, im still gonna
watch this couple. bcoz i like hwayobi. she's funnie.
and cute.

2008-09-22T03:45:00.001-07:00

the music video is finally out just this morning.
and OUH MY GOSH. it's hot. burning hot!!!!!!!!
Rating : 5 / 5.

2008-09-19T05:09:00.000-07:00

~
i so can't wait for their comeback.
im so gonna buy it when it starts selling in singapore.
or maybe i'll just order it directly.
woohoo.
saving my duit raye for this album.

2008-09-01T22:37:00.000-07:00

What Mas Munira Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.

You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.

You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-09-01T08:41:00.000-07:00

okies. let's start with last fridae.
last fridae, i actually said that im not going
to school. but u noe wat. i went to sch.
just coz, i want to eat that cake i bought for the whole
class. it seems "wasted" if i dun eat it. coz i was the
one who bought it. so yeah. i went off frm sch at abt 10.
rushed to semb. but i didn't go to semb sec.
didn't want to. thought i might "accidentally" bump into
those bitches. which i hate to the core. so yeah. semb sec. no way.
called afiqah to meet up at macd instead.
so yeah, met up with afiqah, hidayah & humairah at macd.
we talked for a while. and then went off to watch 4bia.
scary movie yeah. but fun. me & afiqah were like laughing most of the time. so fun.
then, i rushed home to change. and went to work. so damn tired...
met up with amirul after work. accompanied him while he waits for his mom.
he asked me whether i remembered wat day is it the next dae. frankly speaking, i almost forgotten. it was his birthdae. shit me. alrite so i just said happy birthdae. guess wat, he totally has stop smoking already. applause to him.
really, congratz. and he got a new job at sentosa's golf center. so yeah, he get paid higher than my pay. wth?! aniways, who cares abt that rite now. he's going to ns soon. so buat bodoh jer larh. im so bad.

ok. next dae. saturday.
nothing much happening. totally forgotten all about amirul.
and slept the whole damn dae. not working.
too tired otdo anything. not even reply any of my messages.
my life is dull. who cares? so let's move on.

yesterdae, sundae.
ok. "RED LIGHT"!! damn, i can't puase. werk in the morning.
one hr late tho. but whu cares again. no calls. no wateva.
put on more make-up than usual. thought "e" wld be werking.
but no. shit. felt like a bullet just passed tru my heart.
ok. im exaggerating. aft werk, went home. sleep.
ouh, realise something. i finally the floor of my room.
yeah. so i think u get me. my room is cleaned.
not by me. by mira. haha. lazy me. lazy pig.
forever a pig. ok wateva. end of sunday.

todae.
wake up at 4.15. to eat sahur.
mom cook delicious food. so long never eat home-cooked food.
feel like heaven. spent whole day doing laundry. and watch we got married ep 23.
then at nite [rite now] updating my blog.
so yeah. tat's it.

ciaoz.

2008-08-26T14:01:00.000-07:00

ok. i noe im no position watsoever in this.
but i have to say this. coz im angry. coz im seriously pissed off.
by.

rite,i noe no nuts about this 'b' stuff watsoever.
so wateva. but still in a way, it's about relationship.
f*ck u larh. i hate to admit but i didn't like you at all at first.
even in the verie beginning, u had this face. this face that i seem to noe.
my face. yes. my face. when i saw euu, i sorta knew wat type of girl u r.
u r the type that is indecisive. and cannot differentate lust from love.
u dunno how to love. u dunno how to treasure. u dunno anything. u r plain dumb.
BITCH!

i detest saying this. you were the old me. the one that use people's feelings
to make urself feel good. yes, i was like that. yes. i was. u felt empty
and thinking that having azh[who likes you...] by ur side, u think u're now filled. u use her as ur spare tyre. as a filler. as wateva. BUT U HAVE NO WATSOEVA DAMN FEELINGS FOR HER. then suddenly, u start getting bored of her. so yeah, she's now a burden. so this is wat u end up doing to her. azh is really a happy person. when i first met her, altho we aren't friends fer a long time. but we still are friends.
she seemed to be strong. to make our lives in ite awesome, happy days, happy times, laughter. that's wat i experience wheneever im with.
and this, this is the first time. i've seen her crying so badly.
I SWEAR TO YOU, I'LL MAKE U SUFFER WORST THAN THE SORROW THAT AZH INCURRED!

ok i've said. man. im so glad i've said that.

2008-08-25T22:34:00.000-07:00

teacher's day is on fridae.
shit. i wish i can spilt my body into two.
but tat's impossible rite.
so im not coming to school on fridae.
im heading to my alma mater. to cheer for my friends there.
they'll be performing something. wow i can't wait.
and ppl wld think i come there to thank the teachers.
no lorh. there ain't anyone there i want to thank.
even if there is, it is Mr Leslie Tan, but unfortunately,
he left the school already. and Ms Lynn Chua. she also left the school
so yeah. nobody.

well, maybe there's still mdm. norlita. i can't deny that she has helped
me a lot for three whole yrs as my art teacher. and my form teacher for
sec two and three. altho i am not the model or the "A"s student, she still tried
her best to motivate me in my art, hoping that art will help me one day.
and it did. really. i've always loved art. and i still do. just that im not that good at drawing. im more towards the digital art. using softwares like photoshop, imageready. and things like dat. im really not the sktecher or drawing type. but art has help to see things differently or in a different perspective. in a way, it developed me to a much beter person inside and out. im glad for that.

haha. so in the end, there's one person i need to thank. and that is mdm. norlita.
altho i dissappoint her in getting a C6 in art, but i think that really was my best effort ever. thanks, mdm. norlita.

aniways, wat's wif teachers in the this post?
well, im just a lil emotional thinking about
secondary school life. and makes me think back about the
regretful things i've done in school. and the regretful
decisions i made. [like going to express stream & becoming a ex-co in student council] everyone will always say that if they could go back in time, they would surely done things differently. but of course, if there really is a time machine, life wld go haywire.

ok. tat;s all fer todae.
ciaoz.

2008-08-25T08:18:00.000-07:00

the life of the bitches.

omg. i can't believe they are still
handling "the minah strikes" matters.
I pretty amazed at how they can still go on.
haha. Coz if it was me, i just dun give a damn.
pretty hecked up in my life. why would i bother about other ppl
hating me or watsoever.

aniways, why am i toking abt them? shit me.
yeah. i shldn't be. THIS IS MY BLOG.
and it's about me and me.
so i decide wat i write. haha.
im the ruler here. bwahaha.

orite, somebody pls stop this maniac rite.
i think we need to bring her to the mental hospital already.
ok. wateva. just shut it up!

2008-08-25T06:55:00.000-07:00

ok. im back wif piccies.

2008-08-24T20:49:00.000-07:00

ok. i went to watch fireworks on fridae.
i'll update pics ltr.
im busy and lazy.
and ramadhan coming soon.
im finding time. okay.
tis sat im not wrking...

2008-08-21T01:13:00.000-07:00

ok. todae. is so called my happiest day lorh.
1. morning was not crowded.[ i guess ppl decide to go late 4 work. haha]
2. before i went home frm sch, naim talked to me.i mean he TALKED to me.
boy am i happy. hehe. [ok. i noe im easily contented.]
3. then when i reach smb, guess wat. MY LONG TIME NEVER SEE FRIEND!!!
monyet. i met her and aidillah. nyet omg i really missed u lorh.
the first thing i did was to hug her lorh. hehe. damn. she's still as cuddly as ever lorh.
but always teasing me, but gotten used to it.
i really love her lorh. miss her lyke i miss my sushi. [ i haven't eaten sushi in months. it's killing me. ] glad to see her todae lorh. spent a few minutes with her to buy her stuff. i needed to go home early coz i got work.

but u noe wat i dun want to go to work. i hate it.
yeah, so im not going. dun care. wateva. im going to enjoy my time lorh.
shut my phone. and off to bishan library with amirah. to get her reserved books.
haha. den go window-shopping. den go home. and get my much-needed-and-desired LONG SLEEP!!! hahaha.

ciaoz.

2008-08-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

Before I even realized the rain gathered around my feet
and the tears that I kept from falling are pooling in my eyes
I cry

Sounds of the clock in an barren room
The noise of the rain on the roof and my lips
Inside the pocket of the coat I rarely wear
is the ring along with the overwhelming memory
I haven't seen the city in a few days
The gathered rain are like little mirrors
I struggle within them because of the pain
Because without you I'm a chair with a short leg
The umbrella was too small for the both of us
but the umbrella shielded us from the cold world
Now it seems much to big and awkward.
Your left shoulder always got so wet
I hang my head with the weight of the memories
My shoelaces are untied, undone
and all thats next to me is the rain and wind
(not there) is a person that will hold my umbrella for a while
and I cry

You were the umbrella above my head
In the night where the cold rain fell above my shoulders
You being by my side was a habit
I can't be without you
alone in the rain

The ground has gathered the tears of the sky
I can see the moon behind the clouds that block the stars
The sound of lonely shoes echo down the alley
I turn around-
Its just heart wrenching night
A shadow that looks just like me
The two of us that couldn't see "us"
Are we now two people?
The answer is so lonely
The picture in my mind and my response is vague
The umbrella was too big in my eyes
The umbrella I will close facing the world that made me cry
The umbrella that I opened with the promise of forever
Under the ripped umbrella are the two hearts
I guess even though I turn around you wont be there
I put my two hands deep inside my pockets
Even though I walk as if carefree
My two cheeks will become wet so easily

I opened the door of my heart
you're the umbrella above my head
You are my shadow, I am your shade
You're the umbrella above my head
I opened the door of my heart
you're the umbrella above my head
You are my shadow, I am your shade
You're the umbrella above my head

Because you are not next to me
I waited outside with an umbrella
outside your house
I cry

You were the umbrella above my head
In the night where the cold rain fell above my shoulders
You being by my side was a habit
I can't be without you
forever in the rain

2008-08-11T23:43:00.000-07:00

i;ve been away fer too long already.
i guess my blog is collecting dust.
haha. firstly, i wanna apologize for not
going online and updating my blog.
reasons. 1. bored. 2. uninspired.
3. busy with school. 4. busy with work.
BUT the most important reason is IM SIMPLY LAZY,
yes i am. and i can't help it.
haha.

aniways. i'll see you when i see you.

2008-07-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

i've realise that friends hurt each other even if we dun mean it.
but...
for a person lyke me...
i noe im slefish yes. but seriously though i dun give a damn.
all of my friends noe this. and i've warned them already.
so yeah, blame yourself if u got hurt by me.
i've told you that im not a nice friend to begin with...
okay. wth?! i dun understand myself animore.
orite. im talking nonsense again.
haha.

2008-07-08T23:13:00.000-07:00

~ 9th july, wednesday.
*morning(5am - 6am). one word; awful. feeling so sleepy.
some more it is raining. mom went to changi airport at 5.30am.
to get my uncle. who came back frm U.S. i didn't follow. are u sick?
u wan me to follow? im already sleepy. u want me to do a chore.
some more im schling ltr lerh.

*6.30am.
i woke up to take a bath. man, i spent about 20 mins in there.
the water so warm. so nice. but im still sleepy. haha.
i got ready for sch. waited for mira. to go out together.
but it rained. so we went back to get the umbrella.
i brought that ugly umbrella to sch. gosh. wat's worst is that...
when i reached clementi, it was dry. wth?!

*9am - 12am
accounting lesson. okay. darn boriiingg.. and coz i was darn sleepy . i ket making stupid mistake. and i had no choice but to laugh at myself [even though i didn't have the strength to...]

*12am - 1pm
lunch. all i ate was some fries. and sandwiches. then, i did some of the accounting worksheet. coz im getting more tired,,,

*2pm
now. im at OFA lesson. doing one assignment. i've just finished it. and now, i feel as though i have no more strenght. i feel like so sort2 dort. im sleepy, tired. it's tiring being in sch. so yeah, i've decided to skip bfd. im going hm after my OFA. im going hm to slp. get as much energy as i can for tomorrow. im dying...

...

2008-07-07T22:16:00.000-07:00

okie dokie. this is wat i wrote at the display of my phone.
"My heart can't seem to forget the feelings i had for you"
wat he heck am i thinking?
but yes. it's true. i truly still feel this way.
but i noe it's not gonna get me any where.
yeah, she damn right. that one person will regret(in some way).
while the other will get over it and live or move on.
so it ends up with me being the one that regret.

but hey, im really glad that he didn't totally remove me from his life.
aren't i rite?
i still remember he once said. that we have always been together(as in friends).
for a long time. so yeah. we never change.
we just faced a lil something during the time we are together.
so let's just move on.

i've been talking about my past of late.
and came to realise that im not always rite at my decision-making.
but hey, i move on still and go with the flow babe.
and even at this moment, watever happen to me,,,
is more of a lesson and memories...
that i'll forever carry forward to the upcoming BRIGHT future.

in case, no one gets watever im talking about here.
don't bother to find out.
im just writing things that i've been telling myself these few days.

2008-07-06T20:15:00.000-07:00

okay. it's been a while. yes.
and im going to find a new skin soon.
haha. holidae's over. well, for me, at least,
but all my other 17 yr old friends are slping at hm...
coz dey have sch hols for youth dae. it's not fair.
that i dun have a youth dae. i still need to go to sch.
but wth.
okay. im not going to write much.
my comp is about to automatically restart
coz there's some automatic updates. and need to be restarted.
so yeah....
i'll come back. duh.

2008-06-25T00:34:00.000-07:00

Why did i end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
But you've already choosen a different path
Why couldn't I call out to you at all?
Everyday and night growing emotions
And words overflow
But i realized this
They'd never reach you again
Since that day I first met you
I felt like I already knew you
You and I melded into each other so smoothly
It was natural for me to be where you were
The two of us grew up together
But you've already choosen a different path
Why did i end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
Now we can't turn back
The special meaning held by this day
Today you stood with a happy expression
You looked beautiful while praying to god
But I wasn't the one next to you
And the image of you receiving blessings
Of that how could i let go?
Why did i end up falling for you?
How we were before
We can't return to it anymore
(I've thought it through)
Why didn't I hold on to your hand?
You should've always been by my side
(never changing)
But still, even if I'm nowhere near you anymore
I'm praying that you may be happy for eternity
No matter how much that would make me lonely
(no matter how lonely)

this is the english translation
of tohoshinki's new song.
titled why did i end up falling for you?
i wished you all can hear the song...
it is a very nice and sad love song.

2008-06-25T00:11:00.000-07:00

i totally recommend everyone to watch "We Got Married".
it is airing on SBS every sunday.
but i always watch it at youtube.
i really like andy & solbi couple.
and also crown j & seo in young couple.
AnBi - they are very cute. i think solbi is growing in the show.
as time goes by, she matures from every experience.
and i totally like her. she's awesome. im a fan of solbi.
i think she tries very hard to be approved by andy.
and i think both of them are starting to like each other.
honestly, i wld like both of them to really date in reality.
and become a real couple. coz i really think they are very compatible.

J & IY - they are seriously adorable. i can't see them as husband and wife yet.
but i think they are the most intimate couple ever. quarrelling here and there.
i think it is sweet. haha.

i've seen the lastest episode. ep 15. and ep 16 is where they all are going to take wedding photos. omg. anticipation. argh!!!

2008-06-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

todae went to causeway point.
before that, it was raining so heavily.
so i brought that ugly and big umbrella.
haha. i really looked like an ah ma.

ok. so what's my purpose?
accompany afiqah to buy her stuffs.
since im the only one who got most of the member cards.
haha. the funny thing is the shop that she bought the stuff,
didn't have any member cards. haha. so yeah. but it wasn't that expensive.
it's a funny gift actually. and ashtray. that look like lungs. and when it detects heats, there'll be a coughing sound. an interesting gift isn't it?
so what's the gift for?
for her father as a father's day gift.
a late one though.
haha. afiqah. she's a funny one.

ok. actually the first thing we did wen we reached cwp
was to eat. we waited for amirah first.
we ate at the new koran stall at banquet.
i ate spicy seafood ramen that tasted like maggi tomyam.
im not kidding. it really does.
and amirah was like keep repeatingly said that i was cheated.
haha.
but whu cares? as long as i get to eat. haha.

then we went searching for the gift. hanged ard at metro as well.
and mini toons. we actually spotted a super junior-m cd.
which was selling at $12.90 only. i wass like i wanted to buy.
but i didn't haha.
why? dun want to use the money i save to buy amirah a gift for her birthday.
that is coming on 21 june.
she's gonna be 19. haha. im buyin her a pair of high-heels. she will like.
shhh. dun tell her ok. it's fine for me to write this. coz she doesn't go to my blog.
too busy. at her work. and school. no time for herself. so sad. haha.

aniways. happy holidays ppl.

2008-06-14T02:48:00.000-07:00

some picture updates.
taken on 11 june & 12 june.

^me @ montreal green. mira took this pictures. date: 11 june

- - - - - - -

^on the way to changi coast advneture. the bus came near the singapore flyer so why not take a pic of it.

^in the bus. camwhoring session.

^all ready to dragon boat.

^after dragon boating.

^in da bus otw back to campus.

2008-06-13T06:05:00.000-07:00

todae. i went bowling.
last dae of school. so must have lots of fun.
jj. beckham. tok. ezah. tok. hayley. siti & me.
siti didn't want to play. just wanted to watch.
but she threw a few balls under hayley's name.
she got one strike.
cool, huh?
i didn't get a strike at all.
but if u tilt ur head a bit. see my score.
i get to hit most of the pins.
and i got 80 pts. cool, rite?
im improving in bowling haha.
but i need to get some strikes.
we might be bowling again in the hols.
but not decided.
so yarh. it's gonna be fun.

2008-06-12T20:23:00.000-07:00

ok. i did dragon boat todae. woohoo.
so fun. i capsized two times.
i panicked a lil. although i acted a lil brave, and not scared.
but in actuality i was scared.
i was really really scared.
but i needed to act strong fer my friends.
cey bah. hehe.

siti seemed scared and panicked. she was lyke saying her prayers.
so i kept telling her it's gonna be okay.
sometimes in this situation, you have to let go of your fears.

so then, bcoz of this incident, i thought i wanted to learn swimming.
coz i want to learn the whole set of dragon boating and also kayaking and
canoeing.
it seems lyke water sports is something i enjoy most.
i dun seem to do a lot of sports.
but soon, im going to the real world to work.
so i must enjoy myself now more than ever.

ouh, yarh the student councillor interview is on the 17 june.
and its the dae i have a crew outing at sentosa.
darn. i have to go later.
coz the interview is more important.
i have to prepare myself.
so the best side of me.
wish me luck, yarh...

ok, then happi holidaes peepz.